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Before I start, it's been a while since I last post and I wanted to say something about it. I wasnt really in a mood back then as it;s the holiday and at the same time I've forgotten about it as well. But maybe too it's that during this period i\m a little down and i dowan to talk anyting about it. Now that I've recuperated a little, it seems that it's vital for me to keep track of my thoughts pattern and trace for some similarities.

1. How do you feel?
Lookin forward to play my game. Recovered from some emotional down wave, I was probably in a way having expectations which couldn't be fulfilled. Plus I couldn't managed to have fun for quite some time now. Trying to do that now.

2. Specific events that lead to occurrence of such feelings
Downloaded a game and could manage to play it. Hope it's good. Was down few days ago and notably the thing that struck me most is that it's because i've missed Mandy too much. My fondness for her seems to be growing and at a certain point, I seem to be down as I couldn't get her, dunno what I'm feeling. But now it seems a little bit more sorted out, don't get me wrong, my feelings for her is still strong, but it's stops there, I have to clearly know that it's just feelings for her and it will stop at there. So, at times, when I want more, to dwelve more into the feeling so that I could get something stronger, I avoided it as I clearly know I couldnt get anything in return. Admiration is what I could do and let it stay as that.

3. Possible measures (if any) to be taken to overcome or sustain it.
Again, my idea now is to have sustainable fun. I can't solve most of my existing problem at the moment so I will leave it as it is.