tabulas.com

1. How do you feel?
Tired and not very consistent with what I do thus not being able to feel the feel good factor but indirectly this has without a doubt put some form of expectation upon myself which might be unneccessary but then again, conforming to some form of standard isn't a bad thing. I remember I once throwed my standards away now ironically I'm trying to pick the pieces back up.

2. Specific events that lead to occurrence of such feelings
Late night at client place, jam whilst coming back, having to sit ktm and switching station making me kinda late back to home. But the most pull down factor of while will probably be back home where watching Malaysia having to go throught to me some humilatilation where they play against scrap players in which they kinda struggle, it's like the Koreans are indirectly insulting the Msians that we could even pull something out with our scrap but I do hope that this strategy of theirs will eat it back up to their very own face where they will be thrashed. Then I had my pool game in which I had moments of lapsed of concentration which has cause my game.

3. Possible measures (if any) to be taken to overcome or sustain it.
In order to have a stable good character, certain standards will proabaly have to be met and perhaps I'm trying to achieve that at the moment. But well, I do hope that I could like in some way or another get to know more about Mandy, I kinda miss her lately. But maybe the most beautiful position is to be where I am, just an avid admirer, the feelings are probably better too as it could be overhyped and overimagined. :)

But certain things had to be done to overcome my negative position feelings. Till today I have yet to come out with a concrete solution to that increasing to be trying to be a permanent problem.